Where to begin?

So much has happened in the last 6 weeks, I haven´t known where to begin telling the story.  It all started with a Dec 30th journal entry where I listed all the reasons I wanted to be dead, hoping somehow to be reminded of why I still wanted to live.  That was the first breach in the dam, which led to the first two entries of this blog, “Hello, World!” and “An Open Apology To My Own Heart”.  In the two weeks following, God gave me back my heart, my dreams, my father, and He even brought the woman I hope to marry(!).

It was definitely the darkest before the dawn, and God came through at the last possible minute — when I could not deny it was anyone but Him.  It´s like He was just waiting for me to admit my brokenness and my sorrow and my powerlessness, and then He let loose a flood of blessing.

So here I am writing from Guatemala, at the end of the first leg of a year-long mission trip, of which I have dreamed for many years but never thought I was worthy. 

There are many, many stories to tell.  I hope to go back and capture some of the events and feelings which happened over the past 6 weeks, but so much happens each day that I don´t get a chance to write about the day(s) before!

I apologize in advance to those of you who subscribe to the “feed” for this blog, as you will likely be getting a flood of past entries as I (hopefully) get things up to date and continue telling the story as it unfolds.

Thanks for reading and for giving me an excuse to write! 

-Tos